Is this really happening to us?

How we will cope?

Is this real?

And another 100 questions doing roundabouts in my mind.

After the initial shock wore off, we spoke with the some of the senior consultants, had a short term plan in place and eventually calmed down. We were bursting to tell everyone our news after having kept quiet for 12 weeks! And now with the even bigger news we couldn’t keep it in! With scan pictures in hand we visited close family.

Their reactions were priceless! We loved watching everyone trying to figure out the scan pictures we even filmed some of the reactions. We made sure we told everyone of the risks etc. we knew then and with all the positive energy we felt a lot better. WE could do this! It was going to be ok and we have a huge support network of family and friends that were there for us every step of the way!

First we were transferred to Kings College Hospital for feotal care, one of the best hospitals for multiples births and it was decided I would be delivering there. A consultant appointment followed and confirmed it was 3! The initial consultant was very honest with all the risks, we were having identical twins and a singleton, the twins were Monochromic (shared a placenta) and there was a high risk of twin-to-twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS).

There were risks to the singleton of not getting everything it needed, risk to me carrying 3 babies. The list was vast. The consultant then proceeded to say in her opinion it would be ‘best to reduce the pregnancy’, even writing it is making me well up. ‘Reduce the pregnancy – does she know what that really means? It’s not like putting something back on a shelf or taking the rubbish out, it means getting rid of 1 or 2 of my babies. This was heartbreaking. We didn’t even consider it for a second but was this the right decision? At that point we were so scared of the ‘what ifs;’ that we took every 2 weeks as they came! We were blessed with this miracle for a reason. We were going to do everything we could for our babies.

Be aware when finding out you’re having more than one baby often comes with an air of caution, I think it also comes down to hospital budgets and such! You will most likely be offered to reduce the pregnancy.